Sometimes, I don't know.... To me, friends are people we be nice to... yes of course we can be moody and we complain to them, and they are to be sympathetic, or not ;) but, we should be able to accept them... after all, they are the ones we choose for ourselves...

but what if we are friends only under circumstances??? and should that circumstance be lifted, you are nothing to each other... are we friends??? Does that give us the right to be rude? or even hurtful or disrespectful?

I like to think i am more sabar and i tolerate different types of personalities. There are types i cannot stand... and really push my buttons, but most of the time, i do try... But, just because i try and is plesant, am i letting people trample all over me? Do i give them the opportunity to do so? I am no pushover, but i can be nice to a default!!

When someone react a particular way to something... though its not my fault and i apologise... the fact that they did not apologise makes me wonder and hurt... did they think they were right? Did they think i was wrong? Is it not common courtesy just to say you are sorry the same way i am that things happend the why they did?? Did you not feel sorry or even ashamed that it was public and i had to deal with things on my own and pretended things were ok to everyone, when all i wanted to do was crawl into a corner and cry??

I am thinking.... can I work like that? Can things be the same after that? Do I want things to be the same, pretending it did not happen? Am I being emotional?

All I know, I try to make things the same, pretend its over and burried... but I still feel hurt...