Friday 23 February 2007

six weird things....

i can write six weird things in the world.. but i can also write six weird things about somethings or someone... but... its six weird things about me..... here goes...

1. I HATE LIARS and i go balistic about it when i find out. Enough to go through IMMENSE RAGE. (little lies are 'normal', however, when one spread to another and it becaomes your life... !@£$%!) I have lots of repressed anger.

2. I would be having a hard hard... but when i see my patients, I say "hello"... with a smile... (KIDS should stay kids... they love you. they are not prejudice. they love kisses and hugs!)

3. I cry at the silliest thing... occasionally i feel ashamed to cry... I potray this stronng individual with attitude.. I SHOULD not CRY... its not like its appreciated... people often put you down for crying, even if for release.. and its these people I CURSE till my hatred dies.

4. I 'KILL' people that pisses me off horribly in my dreams every night... i am sure everyone remembers how i do this... i do it repeatedly any time, any where.. POWER of visualisation...

5. I believe, truly BELIEVE in religion.... my best time in life is Ugama school. I love my friends, my time and my teachers. What i gained,... was beyond what books... Thank you teachers...

6. I HATE TOMATOTES and ONIONS!!! Some people find that weird.. I think its normal.

next,... i am supposed to tag 6 other people to write 6 weird things about them, and they should again ask 6 other to continue the chain... BUT, you do it if you want to... there are only a few of you featured here... if not you, siapa lagi...

PS: Perhaps i should write about what angers me.. and where it comes from.
but perhaps, i should write about a friend whom i respect... who WOULD put most muslim readers to IMMENSE SHAME!! and rightly so...

Wednesday 21 February 2007

This is something from my sister's email....

Untuk menyambung balik the previous blog entry, My sister emailed me something appropriate and i thought would be a good read to all... so here it is...

and.... HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!

He almost didn't see the old lady, stranded on the side of the road, but even in the dim light of day, he could see she needed help. So he pulled up in front of her Mercedes and got out. His Pontiac was still sputtering when he approached her.


Even with the smile on his face, she was worried. No one had stopped to help for the last hour or so. Was he going to hurt her? He didn't look safe; he looked poor and hungry.

He could see that she was frightened, standing out there in the cold. He knew how she felt. It was that chill which only fear can put in you.

He said, "I'm here to help you, ma'am. Why don't you wait in the car where it's warm? By the way, my name is Bryan Anderson."

Well, all she had was a flat tire, but for an old lady, that was bad enough. Bryan crawled under the car looking for a place to put the jack, skinning his knuckles a time or two. Soon he was able to change the tire. But he had to get dirty and his hands hurt.

As he was tightening up the lug nuts, she ro lled down the window and began to talk to him. She told him that she was from St. Louis and was only just passing through. She couldn't thank him enough for coming to her aid.

Bryan just smiled as he closed her trunk. The lady asked how much she owed him. Any amount would have been all right with her. She already imagined all the awful things that could have happened had he not stopped. Bryan never thought twice about being paid. This was not a job to him. This was helping someone in need, and God knows there were
plenty, who had given him a hand in the past. He had lived his whole life that way, and it never occurred to him to act any other way.

He told her that if she really wanted to pay him back, the next time she saw s omeone who needed help, she could give that person the assistance they needed, and Bryan added, "And think of me."

He waited until she started her car and drove off. It had been a cold and depressing day, but he felt good as he headed for home, disappearing into the twilight.

A few miles down the road the lady saw a small cafe. She went in to grab a bite to eat, and take the chill off before she made the last leg of her trip home. It was a dingy looking restaurant. Outside were two old gas pumps. The whole scene was unfamiliar to her. The waitress came over and brought a clean towel to wipe her wet hair. She had a sweet smile, one that even being on her feet for the whole day couldn't erase. The lady noticed the waitress was nearly eight months
pregnant, but she never let the strain and aches change her attitude. The old lady wondered how someone who had so little could be so giving to a stranger. Then she remembered Bryan .

After the lady finished her meal, she paid with a hundred dollar bill. The waitress quickly went to get change for her hundred dollar bill, but the old lady had slipped right out the door. She was gone by the time the waitress came back. The waitress wondered where the lady could be. Then she noticed something written on the napkin.

There were tears in her eyes when she read what the lady wrote: "You don't owe me anything. I have been there too. Somebody once helped me out, the way I'm helping you. If you really want to pay me back, here is what you do: Do not let
this chain of love end with you."

Under the napkin were four more $100 bills.

Well, there were tables to clear, sugar bowls to fill, and people to serve, but the waitress made it through another day. That night when she got home from work and climbed into bed, she was thinking about the money and what the lady had written. How could the lady have known how much she and her husband needed it? With the baby due next month, it
was going to be hard....

She knew how worried her husband was, and as he lay sleeping next to her, she gave him a soft kiss and whispered soft and low, "Everything's going to be all right. I love you, Bryan Anderson."

There is an old saying "What goes around comes around." Today, I sent you this story, and I'm asking you to pass it on .. Let this light shine.

Good friends are like stars....You don't always see them, but you know they are always there.

Saturday 17 February 2007

Do we pay MONEY for good deeds?????

i heard this from someone close to me... She was being extorted by someone she knew for lending her a helping hand. LIke should we 'pay' good deeds??? Do we demand payment of good deeds. Honestly, I think this is something really BAD... like argh... i can't say it... asking money in return for a good deed you did is of bad taste... macam rasuah tah pulang. Like kalau inda ikhlas, why help....

i don;t think we should help people untuk minta balasan. Apa kan tu? Dalam islam sendiri, kitani di ajar untuk ikhlas dan mengikhlasi segala2 yang kitani buat... macam mana orang ani sanggup buat macam atu arah orang yang dikenalinya lama ani... i cannot understand. Ada jua rasa kan cakap "inda tau malu"...

paham kamu apa nie?? this is EXTORTION!! who is going to say when she is going to stop collecting?? For clarity sake, let me give example... macam, i was helped by Mr A in school, to get good grades, learn facts etc. When i passed an exam, with high score, and went off to do well for myself, he came back and said, its because of me you are where you are today. and because of that, i demand that you give me something for my good deed. Give me money. Buy me expensive things.

So you give in, and you give him what he wanted. but who is going to say that he would not ask for more next year. and if you do not give him anything, he probably would spread vicious rumours that you are an ungrateful BEAST! and so you should give less... that you would be accused of not appreciating the help extended....

WHEN would it STOP. The BIGGEST question of all is... SHOULD WE pay good deeds with MONEY!!!

i say not.... we thank them, we thank the opportunity given to us to, we thank god for how we turn up, but we turn the we turn because of how we make full use of the opportunities given to us... yes we are thankful, but without hardwork, we could not and would not achieve success... and so.... do we PAY MONEY to those extending us a helping hand???

Do tell me what you think... I am quite ANGRY that this person did what she did... but then again, this is my personal opinion. what do you all think... opinions? let me knnow...

Wednesday 7 February 2007

What teachers make...

This is what kak nana sent to us in her email and i like to share it with you all. Its nice... and it rings TRUTH... we need to be appreciative... we need to remember our humble beginnings...


WHAT TEACHERS MAKE

The dinner guests were sitting around the table discussing life.


One man, a CEO, decided to explain the problem with education. He argued, "What's a kid going to learn from someone who decided his best option in life was to become a teacher?"

He reminded the other dinner guests what they say about teachers: "Those who can, do. Those who can't, teach."

To stress his point he said to another guest; "You're a teacher, Bonnie. Be honest. What do you make?"

Bonnie, who had a reputation for honesty and frankness replied, "You want to know what I make? (She paused for a second, then began...)

"Well, I make kids work harder than they ever thought they could.

I make a C+ feel like the Congressional Medal of Honor.

I make kids sit through 40 minutes of class time when their parents can't make them sit for 5 without an I Pod, Game Cube or movie rental...

You want to know what I make?" (She paused again and looked at each and every person at the table.)

I make kids wonder.

I make them question.

I make them criticize.

I make them apologize and mean it.

I make them have respect and take responsibility for their actions.

I teach them to write and then I make them write.

I make them read, read, read.

I make them show all their work in math.

I make my students from other countries learn everything they need to know in English while preserving their unique cultural identity.

I make my classroom a place where all my students feel safe.

I make my students stand to say the Pledge of Allegiance to the Flag, because we live in the United States of America .

Finally, I make them understand that if they use the gifts they were given, work hard, and follow their hearts, they can succeed in life.

(Bonnie paused one last time and then continued.)

"Then, when people try to judge me by what I make, I can hold my head up high and pay no attention because they are ignorant... You want to know what I make?

I MAKE A DIFFERENCE. What do you make?"

THIS IS WORTH SENDING TO EVERY TEACHER YOU KNOW. (And everyone on your mailing list, for that matter).

THERE IS MUCH TRUTH IN THIS STATEMENT: "Teachers make every other profession ".

(indeed, teaching is a noble profession!).

"i touch the future. i teach."... crista macauliffe

Don't you like it? My thanks goes to all teachers... mine,.. that is...

Tuesday 6 February 2007

70 Questions from my sister's blog

1) Are your parents married or divorced?
Parents are still married.

2) Are you a vegetarian?
Not really. I love meat but was Vegan (strict) in UK

3) Do you believe in Heaven?
Yup, I do.

4) Have you ever come close to dying?
Dying? probably not...

5) What jewellery do you wear 24/7?
Does my watch count?? I wear a ring to expell unsuitable suitors into thinking i'm unavailable.

6) Favourite time of day?
Sleep TIME ;)

7) Do you eat the stems of broccoli?
Yes.

8) Do you wear makeup?
I did for a bit. Stopped - why sacrifice sleep for it?

9) Ever have plastic surgery?
I don't need it. Perfect the way i am :)

10) Do you colour your hair?
I did in 2005... and its still in my hair!

11) What do you wear to bed?
PJs..

12) Have you ever done anything illegal?
illegal??? like poisioning people?? hehehehe...

13) Can you roll your tongue?
No... I have the recessive gene.

14) Do you tweeze your eyebrows?
Erm... this 'pondan' did once in 2001. I don't. I have naturally, a good shape.

15) What kind of sneakers?
Used to wear sneakers.. but anything comfortable will do.

16) Do you believe in Abortions?
According to my belief - no. but, its really a choice for others, not one that i would act on.

17) What is your Hair color?
Naturaly black, but now, with 3/4 RED.

18) Future child’s name?
Hahahahaha.. I wouldn't know. Never thought that far!

19) Do you snore?
Hahahaha... of course. My parents and sisters tell me all the time.

20) If you could go anywhere in the world where would it be?
Somewhere peaceful and where you are appreciated.

21) Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
Yuck! NO!

22) If you won the lottery, what would you do first?
QUIT WORKING! Buy a house. Travel. Invest.. dunoo...

23) Gold or silver?
White gold? platinum? but nenek gave me GOLD gold.. and i wear it still.

24) Hamburger or hot dog?
Rarely eat them... but Burger maybe..

25) If you could only eat one food for the rest of your life, what would it be?
Ikan :) I love fish :)

26) City, beach or country?
Country... more peaceful, greenary...

27) What was the last thing you touched?
My car keys.

28) Where did you eat last?
Last night i cooked, so home. Didn't have lunch.

29) When’s the last time you cried?
Cried??? like really cry? hmmm... dunno... last year. Heart broken!

30) Do you read blogs?
Yes.

31) Would you ever go out dressed like the opposite sex?
exactly... pants and shirts with tudong ;)

32) Ever been involved with the police?
Yes! erm.. Long story.

33) What’s your favourite shampoo conditioner and soap?
I use anything. my hair is not fussy.

34) Do you talk in your sleep?
I was told i do,.. and sometimes i feel it.

35) Ocean or pool?
Ocean lah.. walaupun mabuk...

38) Window seat or aisle?
Window - i like to suffer alone.

39) Ever met anyone famous?
Yes... like singers? Was about 5 meters away from Sean Conary in Edinburgh.

40) Do you feel that you’ve had a truly successful life?
hmmm... To others, I am successful. However, i don't think so. But Lucky than most.

41) Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it?
Twirl.

42) Ricki Lake or Oprah Winfrey?
I watch both.

43) Basketball or Football?
its still balls... i don't watch or do sports.

44) How long do your showers last?
i can be ready in less than 10 minutes when rushed.

45) Automatic or do you drive a stick?
Automatic. But I like the stick. Although, my capabilities aren't to be proud of. I'm improving though ;p

46) Cake or ice cream?
Not much of a dessert person... i can't stand the sweetness

47) Are you self-conscious?
self conscious of your actions? or self image? actions maybe. self-image? can't be bothered.

48) Have you ever drank so much you threw up?
No

49) Have you ever given money to a beggar?
Yes.

50) Have you been in love?
But of course. Family love. Friendly love. Self love. Muahaha!<-- Exactly! ;)

51) Where do you wish you were?
Anywhere without the stress.

52) Are you wearing socks?
No

53) Have you ever ridden in an ambulance?
Yes. several times... long story again.

54) Can you tango?
erm... NO

55) Last gift you received?
My patient gave me roses for Teacher's day 2006, a belated birthday present recieved just last week.

56) Last sport you played?
oooi!!! must be swimming... but i consider walking a sport, so like 30 minutes ago.

57) Things you spend a lot of money on?
FOOD!!!

58) Where do you live?
I live in KB now - address is somewhere between Pandan 6 & 7. I also live in Beribi with my parents and Kg.Sg. Akar with my aunt!

59) Where were you born?
Jerudonng.

60) Last wedding attended?
Azmal's wedding in Orchid Garden.

63) Most hated food(s)?
Tomatoes, Onions, SALADS!!!

64) What’s your least fav.?
Hate = least favourite what? <--- hahahahaha.. what more do you want?

65) Can u sing?
yes. in my car to wake me up when driving!

66) Last person you instant messaged?
Fakhri :) last night

67) Last place you went on holiday?
Kota Kinabalu

68) Favourite regular drink?
Diet coke, teh tarik kurang manis, kasturi-lemon ping

69) Tag 3 friends:
Siapa mau... buat lah...

70) Current song:
Not listening to any now, but as i ran out of the car, they were playing DANGDUT on Kristal!!!

Reminiscing Part 2

Part of reminiscing is you look back on what had  happened in your life, and what a better record of my past than browsing through this blog...