Call me naive, but I like to believe the good will always win, and somehow, people will eventually find out whom the rotten ones are... But real life is no story book, nor does it have perfect endings... and people do not always grow a conscience, nor do they reflect back on it...

When does something petty starts to be something uncool? When does something insignificant starts to be hurtful? When does little annoying bits turn to big annoying bits?? And does the phrase, " it only hurts if you let it", true?

Years had passed, and I am yet again, pissed off with the doctors at work. Should I tell someone and make a big deal out of it, just because i feel really annoyed by him?? Should I not want to work with him? Should I learn to ignore him and plod on?

Normally, this is beneath me... but I am the target. I do want to lash out... but i want to hurt them where it hurts. something meaningful. Just sacrifice?? forgive and forget?

Can we really just be blunt and let our tongue do the thinking and walking? Its a mass of muscle without any bone!

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Sometimes, I don't know.... To me, friends are people we be nice to... yes of course we can be moody and we complain to them, and they are to be sympathetic, or not ;) but, we should be able to accept them... after all, they are the ones we choose for ourselves...

but what if we are friends only under circumstances??? and should that circumstance be lifted, you are nothing to each other... are we friends??? Does that give us the right to be rude? or even hurtful or disrespectful?

I like to think i am more sabar and i tolerate different types of personalities. There are types i cannot stand... and really push my buttons, but most of the time, i do try... But, just because i try and is plesant, am i letting people trample all over me? Do i give them the opportunity to do so? I am no pushover, but i can be nice to a default!!

When someone react a particular way to something... though its not my fault and i apologise... the fact that they did not apologise makes me wonder and hurt... did they think they were right? Did they think i was wrong? Is it not common courtesy just to say you are sorry the same way i am that things happend the why they did?? Did you not feel sorry or even ashamed that it was public and i had to deal with things on my own and pretended things were ok to everyone, when all i wanted to do was crawl into a corner and cry??

I am thinking.... can I work like that? Can things be the same after that? Do I want things to be the same, pretending it did not happen? Am I being emotional?

All I know, I try to make things the same, pretend its over and burried... but I still feel hurt...