It has been some time, and a fe has been asking me to write some more... what can i say.... life has stood still?

I've always looked forward to working... never moan or groan to go to work... just hate to wake up in the morning... but doing the work.. seeing patients... I have never grumbled first thing in the morn... Now... I go to work, i work and i go home... clockwork...

I have turned into the person i was accused of... not caring... and now no one cares that i don't care... they leave me alone... when i cared... everyone was on my case as to why I do not make more of an effort... and now that i have proved to them, unlike before, that i do not care... they do nothing... why?

So maybe a move is good for me afterall... so maybe god knows what's going to happen before you even sniffed what is going to happen... everything happened for a reason right...

I was waiting for my boss downstairs today... i was waiting outside my building... It was just a few minutes...

IN that few minutes, i was looking around... I saw...

a frail old man with both his legs amputated waiting for his ride... and with him was his daughter or daughter-in-law. When his son came along... he greeted him with a warm smile and lifted him into the car... no grumbling... no moans...

another person i saw was this young lady... she is always in the hospital.. she sells rice, noodles, cakes and nuts to all the department in my building. She is usually the earliest one there... i saw her since before she was pregnant, during her pregnancy and now with her baby...

I saw a woman with her teenage daughter left the building together... they were talking and smiling... chatting aware and was not even aware that i was looking...

What do all these people have that i do not have?

Happiness.... and perhaps a peace of heart and mind...