One thing i know for sure about myself is that i have loads of character flaws. i know everyone have some, but who knows this better than ourselves. At least I think i do.

Of the many flaws i have, there are plenty that i can do to change, and some perhaps i can change with effort, and many others i thought was my strength may be my weakness and disliked by lots around me, but they never say anything, and just accepted it the way i am. But, for how long?

Sitting here alone in my room, i was thinking about this, and it brought a dash of sadness to my heart. I would not want to tolerate 'friends' of their 'bad habits', or at least, I should be able to tell them what i think of them, and how we can change for the better together. But some how, suggestions as such would not really be well recieved.

i have been wondering to myself... what is it that i really want out of life??? can i really achieve it??? Does money really solve or dissolve problems faced now? would it really be able to make me slightly happier?

Would a change in scenary or environment, or work place, contribute to being less 'sad'?

maybe i am taking too much on my plate... but i feel like there is no one to help me and so i have to do it alone... and when it gets too much, i breakdown, and when i do, i have to self repair or the burdeon would be greater.... am i making sense?

I wish you can talk... and that you can tell me that i am crazy or just tell me something to make me feel better...

often i thought that it is not worth trying to change or upgrade myself... as i do not see the benefits of changing... other than to other people than myself... should i even think of being selfish like that...

i wish i can say... with that amount of money, i would want to have this amout of work and responsibility....

I wish i can say... you are hurting my feelings and that was not what i meant...

i wish many things... but i wish the most to be better