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I logged in several times... and I have been to this same empty page several times... I want to write... but nothing is flowing...

Thoughts I have are negative... I could not write anything that is suitable for public consumption.

I don't want to write about mundane stuff... though i have been guilty of that on more than 1 occasion...

Hence, I am officially taking a sabatical from blogging... until i feel better...

work...

It looks like January is going to be a busy month for me. Attending meetings almost everyday of the week, next week and a couple of times per week till the end of the week. I just hope that it would be useful and beneficial to all involved!

You know how meetings are... They run all the time, people spun stories, promises are made... but not everything are done as claimed. and it would eventually turn out to be a waste of time! I had the pleasure of attending a couple of meetings in my work life that was absolutely brilliant, but meetings like that don't come along often!

On top of that, I will be moving to a new premise probably in March. Suggestions made are considered and will be instated as soon as money is available. I now wonder who will help me run a big space like that!

Looks like 2008 is going to be activity packed. Would i like it???

New year's resolution

What is one thing that people always talk about at the change of the new year? Without fail, they like to talk and ask you about it... read the title... "What's your new year's resolution?", "Did you keep your resolution last year?", "Are you changing your resolution this year?"... and more...

I heard it on the radio... I read it on blogs.. I read it in facebook and friendster.. I was also asked several times... and what is my answer? I do not believe in making new year's resolution.

I used to make one (or several, as it was), as i was growing up. I used to make up and change things until a few years ago, when i realised that its futile... Why? because

• you don't keep it.
• you struggle to keep the not important resolution.
• you wonder how you can keep it.
• you worry about what would be a good resolution this year, because you want to be original.

Instead, i make little oaths to myself. Something achievable anything through out the year. And i give myself a time frame to complete it. An example would be,... I have a temper. Its bad and short and explosive. When i was much younger, it was much much worst! I remembered in Uni, when i was really mad, i used to slammed the door. It freaked my house mates... and i realised that it was a bad thing to have an uncontrolled temper, that controlled you...

It must have been October-November 1996, i made myself a promise that i would control my temper... and i had a plan how i was gonna go about it.... and i managed it... my temper is much better, but i won't boast how great it is..

I have not made any new year's resolution for a long time. the same will happen this year. However, i had plans on how to improve myself ot my work... i'll share if its achieved...

What is going to happen...

I just had a look at this building i was supposed to relocate to.... huh! sounds like news... well,.. that is because i have been keeping mum about it until now. Its not that BAD (fingers crossed!) I was a bit apprehensive before my move to KB... and i am so now, with this move... but, if things were moving to a better direction, why not.... I'll embrace it, even if i am apprehensive about it.

Anyways, I started the new year by attending a wedding of a family member in KB. I don't even know this girl... and we are supposed to be cousins!!! I attended because ... I dunno... what possed me...

I was waiting in the heat, though the food was nice, the fact that i waited for the bride and groom, and finally seeing them and thinking to myself "Who the hell is that!" and.. "I have never seen those people in my entire life"..... so... why was i there????

That just really got me really worked up. I mean... why should i attend a 'family's' wedding when i don't even know her... Why should i attend that function, when i have never seen her at any of our functions... Come to think about it, I have never even seen HER parents visiting MY GRANDMOTHER even during raya..... and we make a habit and tradition visiting my grand's brother (the bride's grandfather) every 2nd day raya!!!

If i can list things i hate... its soooo easy! and it'll be long... its been a few days.... I am still feeling angry and upset with myself for attending that wedding! ARGH!!!!!!

Happy New Year!

Its 6 O'clock and i was woken up by my regular alarm to get up!! I had an early night last night, so it wasn't too much trouble to get out of bed.

This year (well, more so last year), unlike any other year... there was no great family do, no get together amongst friends, no crazy texting "Happy New Year". This time round, the change of year is just another day!

A few weeks back, i was listening to the radio. Though I dislike the DJs, they raised something worth sharing. They were saying that we should list down things we are grateful for, happy that it happend in 2007. As I was listening to the radio, i tried to list my own 5 things, but it was so hard.... so let me try again.

5 things that i am happy for that happened in 2007:

• I lost some weight. Now the problem, is losing more, or maintaining the loss!!!
• I managed to maintain a savings. Not much but enough to furnish my new room.
• I purchased a nice big TV for myself. My first own TV, excluding the one i share and purchased with friends in UK.
• I read books :) Though I should make more time for it.
  
• I am happy i am in KB... away from things... and able to breathe and savour things around me though its hard work and exhausting!!!

So, there we have it... that took an hour, mind you, to figure out.... To list things i am unhappy about in 2007 would have been easier...

To all, Happy New Year. Should you decide to list things you are grateful for, I wish you great ease, than the time i had to go through.