Friday 24 August 2007

Being Lonely...

My friend since i was a young teenager has left brunei with her parents for Germany! It was a kind of relief - I get to stay back in KB and rest, but also a bit sad because she had gone back... leaving us "June and Me" alone....

There is a song i constantly hear on the radio... and has words like "being lonely" no one wants to be lonely purposely... i agree... However, how do you change things???

I am not saying that i am lonely at the moment, but sometimes it does grab you suddenly... and when you do not have support by your side, you feel empty and small...

June gave me this magnificient magnet about being a "cancerian". words such as manipulative, moody, procastinator, craby and more were just some of the words listed. I loved it, though there were some words i do not agree characters i have. Its a lovely magnet and i am putting it on my office cabinet... the cupboards feel empty without anything helping them add character...

Sometimes, being a crab, it makes it hard for people to approach me. however, as i was reminiscing... I have emerged out from my outer hard shell. I was a different person at a young age, if anyone can remember - having a short explosive temper, also not quite a social bird. however, though i am still not quite a social bird, my people skills have improved tremendously! with a bit of temper in cheek!

being lonely.... is painful. sad. and it brings a lot of negetive energy with the word and mood. it helps to have good people in your surroundings to help get you out from a repetitive vicious cycle that seems to drag you down very so often...

18 comments:

Anonymous said...

Sapa Lagi says....

Why don't you write about songs and what they remind you of...memories associated with songs....I would like to read ur blog on this particular subject...

On another subject altogether, i think all of us do feel lonely sometimes. The degree of loneliness is different for each person. You may be single, in a stable relationship or in the flush of romance...loneliness does strike us all...!!!

Being alone is NOT a bad thing altogether. You have to enjoy and savour solitude. There are so many things you can do on your own. Yes, its good to have companies but at times don't you just love the sound of silence?? Its so peaceful and healing!! Being able to enjoy your own company is very empowering!!! Not many people can say they enjoy their own companies and are able to write about it...this is what i called super confidence and contentment!!! Say power to solitude baby!!!

Padian said...

Thanks... I did once thought about writing about music and memories associated with it... but have forgotten to.. I will... one day soon....

Enjoying your own company is good... but its when you have nothing else to do, and silence engulfs you... that is when it gets boring ;) :P and... anyone close to me is about 1.5 hours plus packing time... no fun!

Being in the vicinity.. you can just drop what ever and do what ever...

I am not complaining... not any more... merely stating the obvious, in my case! Distance, i learn(t) is good and precious!

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