Tired

I am soooo tired today. It has been a very busy day... just booked with patients. It didnt help that i slept late last night. was yawning in front of the kids... they laughed. they thought i was being silly.

and because i was tired, and my shoulders ache.. i was a bit testy... i didn't even have a nap during lunch because i was doing work, watching tv and having lunch.

ideally, i would like to go to visit Tutong once a week, admin day once a week and 3 times a week in KB. however, this is just wishful. i dont think it would work. but i shall bring this to the staff meeting and with the admin... i wonder if they would agree...

I have asked for an assistant but then... its difficult to be given one since an assistant was not included in our current scheme of service. I understand that but i so want one. just to make my life easier... and to reduce waiting time. I mean i can train them simple things... and then... they can carry out therapy sessions.

but since these wont be realised in a few more years ( I have lost faith in the system- just follow it... no use thinking and suggesting when it all falls on deaf ears. you are just riding on false hope and then crash with a loud BANG! not worth it. No one cares anyways... Out of sight, out of mind... Someone else's trouble are more 'horrendous' than mine... bla bla bla) I just have to continue doing what i do... let there be long waiting list. Let there be short and incomplete therapy goals. Just treat partially and not completely! etc.

Anyways... what kind of work do you expect from someone whom is paid on the diploma scale to do? a degree's job... and more???