thinking...

Sometimes you think you know something... and you know its the right thing.... and you tell it to someone but it is not well received.... and they don't understand it either...

No matter how much you explained it.. they seem to think you know or understand it and does not trust your judgement when you know what it is and had informed them already...

Fwd: Interesting

May your day be a happy one. I am sending you this

for you to have a good laugh

A first grade school teacher in Virginia had twenty-five students in her
class. She presented each child in her classroom the first half of a well
known proverb and asked them to come up with the remainder of the
proverb. It's hard to believe these were actually done by first graders.
Their insight may surprise you. While reading, keep in mind that these
are first graders, 6-year-olds, because the last one is a classic!

1. Don't change horses...until they stop
running.
2. Strike while the......... bug is close.
3. It's always darkest before....Daylight Saving Time.
4. Never underestimate the power of ------.termites.
5. You can lead a horse to water but -------how?
6. Don't bite the hand that-------- looks dirty.
7. No news is ...impossible.
8. A miss is as good as a ... Mr.
9. You can't teach an old dog new ........ math.
10. If you lie down with dogs, you'll ............ stink in the morning.
11. Love all, trust .----- me.
12. The pen is mightier than the ............ pigs.
13. An idle mind is...the best way to relax.
14. Where there's smoke there's ............ .pollution.
15. Happy is the bride who...gets all the presents.
16. A penny saved is..not much
17. Two's company, three's ... the Musketeers
18. Don't put off till tomorrow what ....... you put on to go to bed.
19. Laugh and the whole world laughs with you, cry and.......you have to blow your nose.
20. There are none so blind as ............ Stevie Wonder.
21. Children should be seen and not .....spanked or grounded.
22. If at first you don't succeed .----- get new batteries.
23. You get out of something only what you .... see in the picture

on the box.
24. When the blind lead the blind ......... get out of the way.

And the WINNER and last one!
25. Better late than ....pregnant

i am in my room, checking facebook out....

there are lots of people on line, but funny how you do not want to talk to them....

feel lonely...

ended up talking to my cleaner (which is fun), my ex-boss young daughter (fun too) and a work friend (serious fun, but fun)...

bored... will lead to eating... have to do something... what??? hmmmm......

Talk about HECTIC.... I am here... there... here again... and there again... all over the place.... 3 districts in a day!!!

Even super girl gets exhausted....

on the positive side.. I have achieved lots of work today ...... (and many more on my list to be crossed out!!!)

There is a camping to plan.... (tonight and nights after that...)
There is a meeting in KB and Tut tomorrow....
The same goes for Wednesday.... Meeting the whole day!!!
Again... meeting on Thursday PM!!

If the meetings were not that important... I would not attend... but they all are..... :( sigh...

I knew there was a VERY good reason why i did not get the UK trip.... :( Disappointing.... but there was a hikmah....

Happy Anniversary

Who would have thought time fly so fast..... its been 4 years since we joined SSEAYP and jumped on the plane to Klang, Malaysia via Singapore....

The experience was not completely good for me, as i had to endure lots of 'hard' personalities... but there were good memories made...

I was EXPLICITLY sick through out the journey... I learnt and felt kindness, friendship, ignorance, selfishness and more.... But i also learnt teamwork, and the spirit of togetherness that binds...

Lots of the team members had very pleasant experiences... Most, if you ask, would like to repeat their experiences.... I probably wouldn't want to unless i was not the leader...

Being a leader is not something EASY... there are just so many things to do... and being responsible and being an example to others is not exactly an easy task...

I made GREAT friends... I also learnt to trust selected few as most are what you call a double edged swords... or better known as TALAM DUA MUKA...

Though there were not lots of pictures gathered during the trip as out 'press' refused to share ALL of our pictures... we still managed to share common memories and share what pictures we have amongst each other...

Wishing all PY 2005 Happy Anniversary.... where ever in the world you are.... Thank you for being the colours of my rainbow....

It has been a while...

I am much over my initial sadness of a broken relationship that i was seriously into... Occasionally, I look back... and think... but.. it happened.... Tried to make it different... but it became different and it was not quite the same... just when i wanted i to be the same...

Recently, my CEO decided that a friend and i would make a good 'motivators'! like where did he get that from??? I need motivation myself :P

Last week, we went for a trip to Temburong where we (me and friends) did a motivation games and 'talk'.. it was fun :)

i was so looking forward to going back to UK.. even if it was for a course.... unfortunately that did not go through.... there is a divine plan for me, right...

Next week, i am going out with the boys... that is something i look forward to... ;)

someone said to me... that i dress too simple and that 'he' would like to see me in more than that... he did not specify how... but i gather that he would like to see me more dressed up like 'normal' girls go to work instead of my baju kurong, and put on make up... heels...

I laughed it off... i know there is nothing wrong with what i wear... or my lack of make up... its not like it impaired my work quality or how i see my patients... but it made me think...

Should i really make a change??? but why??? I am happy to be simple.... but if it changes perception... and it would help me get my way... i would try... i think.... its too much work at first.. but i am sure i can accommodate it...

what you think.........

Update...

So the country finally had its share of the Swine Flu.... And guess what i have been doing...

I had a fairly relaxed birthday... was treated to a 'surprised' nasi katok and cake treat in the clinic... and a my fav food for dinner... I had lots of birthday greetings on sms, esp from F whom remembered.... I was flooded with texts and lines on facebook. To all.. Thank YOU!!

The day after, though the sultan's birthday was not celebrated as usual, i went out with 2 boys (i should say MEN, but i am comfortable with boys!). Had plenty of food, movies (and a screaming one, too), and very very nice company :) It was a brilliant day.... I love the boys... they are just brilliant!

To make things only better, i met up with the girls and Yus for a birthday lunch. Unfortunately A, can't make it... but she has her kids :) so that is great too. and again, i had a smashing time!!! I had cake, great food, pressies :) (I had from the boys, too) and a movie with L. Had a very lovely time with them, too! Thank you girls and boy....

I am one of the few had to work because of Influenza A H1N1 hits our country, but few things came out of it:

1. I remembered i love work and is organised and 'efficient' :P hahahahaha! But its true!
   
2. i found my spirit, again....
   
3. i sleep well (most days, and does not require taking my sleeping pills!)
4. i spend time with 'creative' people... and people whom genuinely cared... and they too work passionately...

I also enjoyed spending more time with friends... and booking friends around my tight schedule... but time spent was and is always was/going to be brilliant!!!

I have not seen my little people, but that is out of choice for their protection mostly... soon... i hope i get to see them.... soon....

Few days back... i enjoyed a walk on the beach with a friend... THAT was brilliant... I forgot how much i love the beach... and people watching :) I saw people (families) catching fish on the beach itself. I enjoyed myself watching them...

Again, despite the current pandamic, i am more happier... and my doctor feels the same way... hope it continues to be so...

Emotionally, i have been through many things... its was excruciatingly painful, humiliating, felt betrayed, was an opener ... I was glad i am working as it gives me the opportunity to 'run' and 'hide' from things i wasn't ready or prepared to confront and work through...

I felt like such a 'loser'... like... i made all the mistakes that i could not understand it... My brain could not compute it that it shuts down... I even experienced self-doubt!!! for a while, numbness was what i felt... and it gets you through the motions of the daily routine...

Last week, I spent the day with the kids... they were so full of life! They slept over... and i played carer for the night. I cooked, cleaned, prepare bed, bath, watch tv, talked and played, did not sleep a wink... and it started VERY early again the next day!

Though kids exhausts you... they made you angry.... but they can be loving too....

a niece said, "Aunty M... I love your toilet!" - i smiled!

Another said, "Can i sleep here forever? - Obviously NO! but, its sweet to be thought of as nice... as compared to being nothing in other's eyes and/or opinions.

Kids also gives you hugs and kisses... i love them all...

I'm in and out of my phases... There are good days... there are bad days...

Basic Life Saving Course

Today, me and several friends and colleagues from the hospital joined the Basic Life Saving Course in Ong Sum Ping. We were joined by several nurses from the same districts, and fellow nurses from JPMC. Though we did not really know each other, since we are a friendly sort, we kind of blended sort of well... (Its natural that there are several that do not BLEND well even if you try!)

The course, i thought would be a bit daunting... But, despite reminders to actually learn as questions may be tough, i didn't!!! and was hopeful to rely on the old grey matter to save the day!!! and it did!!! :) Lucky me!

The lecture bit was not boring... It was good... Though it could have been expanded. In theory, if you had read the content of the course before you have started the class, you can ask all sorts of questions... HOWEVER, should you are like me, ignorant with very little medical background, you wouldn't know what to ask, thinking all information had been laid out for you - (typical behaviour of spoonfeeding!!! Despite studying abroad!!! :P)

In the middle of the lecture, we were briefly interrupted by a man whom was obviously in-charge. He informed us that a few 'lucky' ones with good scores might be called upon to join the 'unit' as instructors where ever they may be... as of this moment in time, instructors are only made up of nurses.

Its not like there would be a hike in pay.... I wan't very much interested... but was looking forward to having fun! I am such a nerd! I like answering questions, even though i sometimes know it is incorrect... I know i should really give others the chance to answer... but since they didn't, i didn't really want to disappoint the speaker by giving this vibe that we are disinterested in her 'talk' and the task at hand. I would be most worried if no one responded while i am giving the talk :)

Anyways... Practical time approached :) and it was fun time. I was fortunate to have been grouped with A. It is fun-ner to be with someone you can have fun with, relax and absorb :) The others in the group were also very warm :) and made learning very easy to absorb :) I found the practical quite easy... though several repetition required before it could be mastered:P

Giving the kiss of life is not as easy or 'sexy' and alluring as you may think it is... I, for one, find it gross... I always find the exchange of body fluids no matter where it comes from gross.... and unhygenic. Lucky, each of us were given this plastic fllim with a breatheable piece in the middle to put across the lips to help us perform our task in a MORE hygenic manner.

Imagine otherwise, the saliva exchange of at least 22 people on the manikin, not including the instructors!!! GROSS!!! BACTERIA!!! VIRUS!!! YUCK!!!

There were four battle stations... and, it was actually quite good. I have to give the instructors a big hand, the speaker as well, for preparing a lesson plan that is effective, as well as fun. No one was intimidated by my questions, and the others as well... Generally... I had fun :)

Exam time.... consists of 4 battle stations (practical) and 50 MCQ questions. Though MOST of the questions were not hard, they are definately tricky! but... i passed :) and the practical was basically what you have learnt in the morning.

The new CPR technique IS easier than the one i had learnt more than 4 years ago, where the rules changes for different ages. The new CPR techniques are quite easy to follow and understand, and do it yourself.

Though you get tired huffing and puffing.... and giving chest compressions through out the day, fantastically, several things came out from today:
1. I had fun, laughing and smiling the whole day :)
2. I bonded with people from the hospital... and i 'berkenalan' with 3 new staff of MOH.
3. Exchange and update of news was vital to make sure you know what is going on in your surroundings... and of this moment, i am considered updated with events :)
4. Had been invited to be a BLS instructor despite low scores on tests - must be the personality that attracted them.

A while back, i had been suggested to write a piece on how your memory can be triggered with music or how you associate certain things with music.

Looking back, its been 10 years since i left Uni... and i had FUN in uni. Just a few moments ago, I was 'talking' to a friend from Uni, and how he said, one of the lecturers still remembered me, despite me NEVER saying more than 'Hi' in the hallway! I wonder what that was about... will wait for an answer from C.

Anyways, that made me think of all the music i was exposed to while i was there... How certain songs were emotional to me as it coincide with certain significant events in my life. But, certain songs also triggered past memories.. i can even see it right in front of my eyes as if it was yesterday.

Most of you whom knows me, knows that i don't dance well... but, as you were growing up, and trying to fit in, when others are trying to dance and follow the steps of certain songs, after much protest, you join in... I did not fully enjoyed it, but it was something WE did together and i remembered it... brings back a certain kind of glow and warmth from within.

Eternal was playing and hot on the charts when i went to London for the first time, and met the other 'friends' for our first Junjung Ziarah.

i was heartbroken and listened to the Honeyz millions of times... on repeat!

Robin William(s) released his single and it was only a few days before i met/knew of F.

Gary Barlow released his own album while i was on Summer block :) that kept me sane!!!

The SPice Girls released their singles nearing christmas made us all ran to Wollies down the hill to get one ourselves... and forgetting to revise!

Brightman and Borcelli released their song almost easter and nearer to exam...

There was STEPS that surprised everyone that they can stay as a group more than a year... that taught me determination :)

and more...

every time i go through my old music collection, and truly enjoyed the pieces, like Aqua :P, certain memories comes back... visions and recollection of events comes back...

Though most of us "uni friends" are no longer friends... (a different article), music did bring us together and closer at that time.... and then... there are happy memories...

Just a few days ago, Y excitedly introduces a song to me in his car. It was funny, it was catchy :) Liked it immediately. Then, as i was driving home from a long day at work yesterday, I heard the song and remembered Y. He got a text from me... :)

Power of association... and memory :) and my positive entry after a while...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to AUNTY NOR :)

Its the 20th of May.. and what's so significant about it? Its June's Birthday!

Here is to wishing June all the best... more luck and it changing for the better *HUGS*

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!

Ever felt small and insignificant?
Ever felt irrelevant?
Ever lost your self esteem that you double guess yourself?
Ever feel rejected?

I am cute

I was chatting to my male cousin... when he asked me if i have a bf... Obviously, he is just fishing for information... so i said no.... to which he was surprised and said... "You are cute and you don't have a boyfriend! I don't believe you!"

I gave a loud laugh... and an equally loud laugh virtually... I said to him... "You are blind" He responded by saying that there is no harm complimenting someone, especially when it doesn't hurt anyone...

Though it wasn't very sincere, i appreciated the gesture.

Few days back, my dad entered my room like he always do and sat on my bed... quiet for few moments, he suddenly and randomly announced "El, you look cute even if you are fat! Lose weight and you'll be cuter."

Not only was i shocked, i smiled and laughed...

I guess... Men tend to be blinder than anticipated and very partial to their family members...

Its SUNDAY and its mother's day!!!

I am BORED!!!

i am in my room. I am online... am on MSN, Yahoo, Gmail, Skype, facebook and no one is online for a converation to go on...

I am bored out of this mind!!!

Then there was TV... oh my god! its so dry!!!

I am sooooo hungry... and i love too far for delivery!!! I want pizza!!!! sigh.... why why why!!!

What is swine flu?
Swine Influenza (swine flu) is a respiratory disease of pigs caused by
type A influenza viruses that causes regular outbreaks in pigs. People
do not normally get swine flu, but human infections can and do happen.
Swine flu viruses have been reported to spread from person-to-person,
but in the past, this transmission was limited and not sustained
beyond three people.

Is this swine flu virus contagious?
It has been determined that this swine influenza A (H1N1) virus is
contagious and is spreading from human to human. However, at this
time, it not known how easily the virus spreads between people.

What are the signs and symptoms of swine flu in people?
The symptoms of swine flu in people are similar to the symptoms of
regular human flu and include fever, cough, sore throat, body aches,
headache, chills and fatigue. Some people have reported diarrhea and
vomiting associated with swine flu. In the past, severe illness
(pneumonia and respiratory failure) and deaths have been reported with
swine flu infection in people. Like seasonal flu, swine flu may cause
a worsening of underlying chronic medical conditions.

How does swine flu spread?
Spread of this swine influenza A (H1N1) virus is thought to be
happening in the same way that seasonal flu spreads. Flu viruses are
spread mainly from person to person through coughing or sneezing of
people with influenza. Sometimes people may become infected by
touching something with flu viruses on it and then touching their
mouth or nose.

How serious is swine flu infection?
Like seasonal flu, swine flu in humans can vary in severity from mild
to severe. Between 2005 until January 2009, 12 human cases of swine
flu were detected in the U.S. with no deaths occurring. However, swine
flu infection can be serious. In September 1988, a previously healthy
32-year-old pregnant woman in Wisconsin was hospitalized for pneumonia
after being infected with swine flu and died 8 days later. A swine flu
outbreak in Fort Dix, New Jersey occurred in 1976 that caused more
than 200 cases with serious illness in several people and one death.

Can I get swine influenza from eating or preparing pork?
No. Swine influenza viruses are not spread by food. You cannot get
swine influenza from eating pork or pork products. Eating properly
handled and cooked pork products is safe.

HOW DO I PROTECT MYSELF?

CDC Poster currently in use in Linden, USA


-Cover Your Cough

Stop the Spread of Germs that Make You and Others Sick!
Serious respiratory illnesses like influenza, respiratory syncytial
virus (RSV), whooping cough, and severe acute respiratory syndrome
(SARS) are spread by:

Coughing or sneezing
Unclean hands
To help stop the spread of germs,

Cover your mouth and nose with a tissue when you cough or sneeze.
If you don't have a tissue, cough or sneeze into your upper sleeve,
not your hands.
Put your used tissue in the waste basket.
Clean your hands after coughing or sneezing

Wash with soap and water or Clean with alcohol-based hand cleaner.
Keep Your Hands Clean

Keeping hands clean is one of the most important steps we can take to
avoid getting sick and spreading germs to others. It is best to wash
your hands with soap and clean running water for 20 seconds. However,
if soap and clean water are not available, use an alcohol-based
product to clean your hands. Alcohol-based hand rubs significantly
reduce the number of germs on skin and are fast acting.

When washing hands with soap and water:

Apply product to the palm of one hand
Rub hands together
Rub the product over all surfaces of hands and fingers until hands are
dry.
When should you wash your hands?

Before preparing or eating food
After going to the bathroom
After changing diapers or cleaning up a child who has gone to the
bathroom
Before and after tending to someone who is sick
After blowing your nose, coughing, or sneezing
After handling an animal or animal waste
After handling garbage
Before and after treating a cut or wound
Your Personal Work Spaces

· Only assume your area is clean under the following conditions
· If you are the only one using the workstation/space
1 If ylways clean your hands before touching your face

· Personal disinfectants
· Hand sanitizer (wipes/solution) can be used instead of soap
and water for cleansing.
1 Rub hands together for at least 10-15 seconds

· Environmental Disinfectants
· Use surface wipes to clean surfaces that have been or will be
shared with a co-worker


Shared Work Space

· Assume the workstation/space is potentially contaminated
· Virus can survive for 24-48 hours
1 Clean the workstation/space before using it
2 Clean your hands before beginning work at the workstation/space
3 Always clean your hands before touching your face

· Skin Protection
· Use gloves while cleaning the workstation

· Environmental Disinfectants
· Surface wipes/disinfectant cleaner on work surfaces you and
others have used: phone, keyboard, mouse, etc.

First, Wishing birthday greetings to Selina, Kak Neza and Uncle Aboy upon their anniversary today. Wishing you only the best.

Other than that, today we as a department held a farewell 'party' for one of our colleague. It was small and very intimate. We had lunch in the clinic. We shed tears as if it was on tap. We gave pressies. and shed more tears.

Though we would still be working together, its somehow different.

I was asked to deliver a farewell speech on behalf of all... I knew i would cry... i cried preparing it. but i was definitely wasn't ready for the emotional rush... I cried only a few sentences into the speech... much earlier than expected...

But all is good. I am feeling positive. I must be positive. I want only to think of blue skies.

This is me during the suprise party.... and was the MC! Fancy that... looking good :)

18th April 2009 - We planned a suprise birthday party for IBU for ages... it was meant to be glamour 60's & 70's... I, asl usuall had put planning to the last minute... and made nothing special, so i had to just wear something i had... and put things together... Luckily that night, my eldest sister had an afro wig which she kindly lend to me, and HENCE i became the DISCO mama!!! I look absolutely gorgeous! You would not believe it! 

21 April 2009 - had to fast and draw blood for some tests... i went to the wards thinking i can get it done quickly because i had patients the whole day.... i ended up being pricked 7 times.... on both hands.... every where imaginable!!!  apparently my veins are tiny and deep setted... they managed only 3ml of blood!  I went to the  makmal at 11... 1 time... and he got everything.... Guess where i am going the next time?

--
Friendship is the heart of so many special joys.

I am feeling tired... and when you are tired, little things can rile you up.... or you just dont have the energy for little things... Is this how people move on?

Perhaps this is my way of doing things, so i do not think and feel much... just go through the motions....

I'm tired, and i can sleep all day long... never get out of bed...

I had dinner with B. He even picked me up, knowing i live so far. I should not make it a habit. That is clearly taking advantage of a friend.

B was a nice distraction i need to be away from my own thoughts. and I am much better at trying to solve other's problems than my own.

I guess I am a loner in nature. Despite having many people in my surroundings to talk to, I often opt to be on my own, keep my own counsel, be quiet etc. I let a few in into my 'world' or 'shell'. But those I let and allow an insight into my world, well, they had undergone a 'personal' screening to see if they are suitable, and most importantly, a 'like' soul... This often makes me look like a private person... so be it.

I have always thought I am an easy going person, i listen well (though there are times i fight opinions, but that is just the way things are), i am agreeable most times, NOT very demanding, and VERY reasonable. These are strengths in character, i thought...

Until recently, I share a special relationship with someone. But for sometime now, things had been 'rough' for me. F, is however, a nice person. Relationship is especially hard for me. I take time to 'accept and bond' but when i do, i am exclusive. So when it fails, it really kills me. I breakdown just like everyone, if not worse. I lose self confidence. I start to have self doubts. Building up again is very hard. Some people see this tough persona in me... Do i really give that impression?

As you get older, more invested in relationships, it gets harder. I do not remember it to be so merciless. Maybe it was... People do tend to forget pain, and look in life of the positive experiences. It keep spirits high and allows you to move on... eventually.

I often ask myself, do i sabotage my own 'relationships' because of life experiences I had??? So before it fails on me, signs of cracks make me cave in? Do i have an innate desire to fail at this all the time because i know the ending will not be good? Am i afraid to commit?? or do i just suck at the whole thing? I don't know the answers....

Friday the 13th was said to be the unluckiest day. Historically, many evil things were said to have happened involving witches and warlocks. Nowadays, its just deemed unlucky.

A couple of years ago, I heard on the radio that people believe less and less of this. However, people believed Monday and the 27th or 29th is most unlucky. They actually did a study on this.

Did you know that RIPAS Hospital do not have Ward 13! maybe 'they' believed in it long time ago... superstition.

Today, I am just unwell. Had to decline an offer to meet friends. besides, i sound like a frog that has voice problem. And cough everytime i speak. Not good.

I just realised that the dr did not give me any antibiotics this time!!!

I am officially sick - my head feels like a huge load of truck is sitting on it, and occasionally, an axe just hit it, my tummy throws up food and nutrition i try to ingest, the nose blocks my air and my voice is as rough as nails on a wooden slate!

I went to see a dr today, and without asking, i was offered a sick cert - shows you how sick i am. I even met an old friend, whom also commented on how 'wonderful' i looked.

I have been sick the 'whole' year more than i have been healthy. I had spoken to the 'girls' at work about reducing some of my workload. I saw unhappy faces, responses and these were expected but disappointing at the same time.

I think working and living had taken its toll on this obese body! 'It' is just tired and wants to give up!

It is so easy to give up and give in to dark feelings i have, always just there, but no one else can see it or feel it. Its harder and more effort full to just try and be strong, confident, wanting to move on, change, be happy, be positive ... very very hard. Unless you have been in a dark place, what you think you feel are nothing of that the real thing.

Today is my niece's birthday. Hannah turns 6 today. A big girl. Mummy is giving her a treat to a Japanese restaurant, one of her favourite food. Since i am unwell, and do not want to spread this viral disease, i decided to decline the invitation. but, i wish her all the best. and most importantly HAPPY BIRTHDAY! *wink* she has a birthday present from me.... some that has been waiting for a few months now :)

Yesterday was Maulud Nabi - birthday of the prophet. It was a public holiday in Brunei. Some went to the streets and walked a procession. Its done annually, especially on the birth of the prophet.

The family and I - well... we had 'lunch' and discussed a secret lengthily. It was a good thing, because I did not want to be alone.

Today, I am SICK! yes... sick again. I guess this was my own doing... Maybe i deserved to be sick... I wish Frank would call me... I wish i can hear his voice... i wish we can talk...

I was watching tv a few days ago. There was a competition of speech in Bahasa Melayu. This was carried out in Malaysia. Many countries joined. It was very interesting. Though I did not watch from the beginning, but what i saw was very impressive. There was a russian lady that spoke Malay fluently that I thought was brilliant. Accent was few and far in between detected. Idioms of the language, idiosyncrasies were also good!

The international participants wowed mee. They really blew me over. One in particupar, the winner of the competition, a Cambodian man. He was tiny that the clothes he put on was swimming on him. I immediatrly felt sorry for him. But when he started talking, I knew he was the winner. He was just charismatic :) Well done!

I was, however, dissapointed with the masters of ceremony. They should not have chosen him. He was obviously a bad choice. I was thinking.... Brunei would have never have a problem filling in gaps while waiting for the judges decision!!! Poorly done.

Another dissapointment was the gift certificate ceremony and the announcement of winners!!! It was OBVIOUS they did not have any rehearsal of such ceremonies as they were clueless of what to do! I felt sorry, not only for the participants whom made a fool of themselves, but also the dignitaries on the stage, while they helped to unconfuse participants, but making a mess! This clearly would not happen here, as this is one of the major event that would be rehearsed more than once, and getting protocol right is imparative in our culture!

On the whole, participants were amazing. Poor master of ceremony, and lack of organisation and rehearsal of events!

By the way, Brunei won 3rd place :)

Looking back...

Looking back, i was most expressive... i write a lot. I cry a lot. Anger and frustrations were evident, too! Now, i write less. What happened to me?

Looking back, entries were witty, challenging, heart-wrenching... Have I lost it?

Looking back, pictures were aplenty. Now, you'd be lucky!

Looking back, I had so much hopes, desires... Now, entries are more sad... Have I changed?

Looking back, emotions were on the high. There is always some issues close to heart. Am I being more sedentary?

Looking back, did i ever imagined me to be this?

Looking back, did you ever think I would be 'this'?

Yesterday, a few of us, including my sister and her beau, went to make a book with Rozi. I have to say, it was one of the most enjoyable course i had joined :) The people were of course great. Plus the fact that my book was CUTE :P hahahaha... I don't have like a good camera so i used the one from the laptop instead. I strongly suggest people to join :) It a good activity to do together as a group of friends, as family, or as a gf/bf kind of thing :) its cool :)

Happy 25th National Day to all :) To those who went to the stadium to march, sit and just see the whole event, i hope you wore your sunblock! :) And those of you who stayed in and watched from the safety and cozy shelter of your own home, well done. :)

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR - 2009

To Family and Friends: GONG XI FA CHAI!!!

What is in store for the snakes in 2009?

Snake people had a fair luck in 2008, year of Rat. In the year of Cow 2009, they will have a better luck than 2008, this is because the Cow and Snake have attraction relationship. There are Lucky Stars coming to Snake people, their career performance will have significant progress. Also Snake people's money luck is much better than most of people. However, some Unlucky Stars gathers in Love and Health area. Love relationship won't have a good development. Snake people need to watch for their health in 2009. Although Snake people have many opportunities, but they have to understand their limit to determine when making a aggressive move to increase the chance of success.

Career: There are two strong Lucky Stars showing in career area in 2009. You will win the good reputation from the job position. You job performance can bring in more income. In 2009, you can successfully reach the goal of your proposal or company development plan. You will earn the recognition from the company, since your excellent achievement at your working projects. A job promotion or salary raise is possible. However, you still have two Unlucky Stars appearing in this year. Someone might try to block your career opportunity, which could extract your concentration and then impact your judgment. Therefore, you need to work on projects with caution to avoid any mistake and stay away the argument with others.

Money: You have two Lucky Stars coming money area this year. One of them is the Money Star. Certainly that's is a good sign to increase the wealth. Since you have good luck in the career area. Either you work for someone or you own the business, the career opportunity should bring you more income than in 2008. However, this Money Star is not a Windfall Star. The money won't automatically come into your door. You still need to find it, plan it, work on it, then bring it into your pocket. Therefore, if you are lazy and wait for it, then you will lose the money opportunity in the year of the Cow.

Love: Many Unlucky Stars gather in emotion area. You are used to protect your ego. You are afraid of hurting your feelings in love. Your passion for love will cool down. There will be no progress in love relationship. If you are still single, it will be difficult to find someone you like to talk with you this year. If you are married and in love, then your love relationship won't show any closer sign. Instead, you will have some minor disagreements with your lover often, which might impact on each other's daily mood and work. The married people also have to pay attention on their spouse's health in 2009.

Health: An Unlucky Star shows the sign of loneliness and isolation to you in 2009. The lonely emotion could affect people's health. If you encounter difficulty at work and feel frustration in love, then your health will be impacted right away. The most common symptom is
insomnia. This Unlucky Star also indicates a hint of sadness and tear. If you are a senior Snake people,
then you need to pay more attention on your health. If you often feel uncomfortable, then you must visit doctors to take care the pain at once.
Otherwise, a small illness might become a serious disease.

Fortune: Snake people have good and bad news in last year, 2008. In general, Snake People have significant improvement in career and financial performance this year. You should use this opportunity to save more money for the need in the future. As fro love, you need be more initiative and proactive to communicate with your partner to improve the understanding between you two. For the single Snake people need to watch for your manner, outlook and temperament to improve your attractiveness. Then you might have chance to meet the person likes you in the year of the Cow.